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teddogWhile some people like JP and I barely made it to the end of the school year foodcard wise, you should have seen what happened today.
A bunch of guys went to the caf and bought $90 worth of ice cream to waste their leftover foodcard cash.
I'm not kidding. They grabbed three food trays and piled the ice cream packages on top. We're talking mounds of ice cream packages. They showed up behind me in line at dinner and my jaw almost hit the floor.
Other than that... the day was rather blah. Programming exam was "meh". The only thing that tripped me up was that I forget how to call the X and Y axis from the window features until about an hour and 15 minutes into the exam. Even then, I could only remember the names for the axis in Internet Explore and not Netscape.
It wasn't a hard exam more than a long one. Writing code by hand sucks.
We got to see everyone's movies from Single Camera Production class today. Even though it was relaxed and fun and the teacher brought pop and donuts... I don't know. The whole thing left me feeling hollow.
I can't place what bothers me about it. True, Photography leaves me hollow too, but something down right troubles me about the film class.
Maybe it's that I feel like I did not work on the group project. Craig told me that everything was fine and Tiff said I did more than my fair share, but I feel that I didn't. The lighting in the end product is too hot. I'm not happy with the sound either.
Or maybe it's that our end product is way too polished. I hate video with that ultra clean look, but I'm probably the only person in the multimedia class who does, judging from what the class said afterward.
I think that it might boil down to my low self-esteem and that I can never get along properly in groups because I can never feel accepted, ever. Damn it, I didn't even feel like I was part of some online fan groups until it was beat into my head that I was. Groups don't bother me like crowds (mob theory IS true, darn it), but I'm happier on own. Born a lone wolf, die a lone wolf.
The few groups I'm happy with are people I've known for a long time, like Louise or Lisa, but I've known them for almost 20 years. Blah.
End Rant.
A bunch of guys went to the caf and bought $90 worth of ice cream to waste their leftover foodcard cash.
I'm not kidding. They grabbed three food trays and piled the ice cream packages on top. We're talking mounds of ice cream packages. They showed up behind me in line at dinner and my jaw almost hit the floor.
Other than that... the day was rather blah. Programming exam was "meh". The only thing that tripped me up was that I forget how to call the X and Y axis from the window features until about an hour and 15 minutes into the exam. Even then, I could only remember the names for the axis in Internet Explore and not Netscape.
It wasn't a hard exam more than a long one. Writing code by hand sucks.
We got to see everyone's movies from Single Camera Production class today. Even though it was relaxed and fun and the teacher brought pop and donuts... I don't know. The whole thing left me feeling hollow.
I can't place what bothers me about it. True, Photography leaves me hollow too, but something down right troubles me about the film class.
Maybe it's that I feel like I did not work on the group project. Craig told me that everything was fine and Tiff said I did more than my fair share, but I feel that I didn't. The lighting in the end product is too hot. I'm not happy with the sound either.
Or maybe it's that our end product is way too polished. I hate video with that ultra clean look, but I'm probably the only person in the multimedia class who does, judging from what the class said afterward.
I think that it might boil down to my low self-esteem and that I can never get along properly in groups because I can never feel accepted, ever. Damn it, I didn't even feel like I was part of some online fan groups until it was beat into my head that I was. Groups don't bother me like crowds (mob theory IS true, darn it), but I'm happier on own. Born a lone wolf, die a lone wolf.
The few groups I'm happy with are people I've known for a long time, like Louise or Lisa, but I've known them for almost 20 years. Blah.
End Rant.
